What we take for granted

So many of us take for granted the fact that we can go out and have a great day with our families! But for people like me who have severe back and leg pain it isn't always that simple. As i said in a previous post even walking for 20 minutes leaves me in worsening pain. I can't always go out when i want to. I don't get to enjoy a night out with the girls, dinner out with my husband, or even just going to the park to enjoy a sunny day with my family. I have to take along my medications including an extra pain pill or two, my cane, and sometimes my wheelchair! There are days when i get so tired of being stuck in bed (like today) that i just decide to go out anyways and endure what will come as a result. Today i went to my Mother-in-law's house for about an hour, to get my nails done (haven't done that in a long time), and then out to dinner with my husband and my daughter. Even though i had a wonderful time and loved every minute of it...I am now paying for it. I would describe my pain right now as stabbing pain in the lower back with hips that feel as though they could explode any minute, and my legs are very weak and sore. I will more than likely be stuck in bed tomorrow due to worse pain that other days.

Sometimes i wonder did i take days out for granted before my pain began?? Well if i did before .... I never will again. I will enjoy every moment of every day. Another thing i have noticed going through this is that I am always seeing people on facebook and other media websites complaining about their hard days at work. I would give anything to be able to go to work on a daily basis...I wish i could! I am constantly feeling guilty because my husband has the burden of being the sole breadwinner in the family. I feel like there is more i should be doing to help out. He says i am not a burden at all, but still it's how i feel most days. So i know that once i am fully recovered from this surgery, one of the first things i will be doing is finding a job!!! I can't wait to get back to the daily grind as we so often say.

So i guess my point for today is that we shouldn't take for granted the simple things in life. Be happy that you have the ability to go to work, go out on a date, and just hang out with friends and family in the park. Enjoy the opportunities you have every day and never ever wish to be someone who can just stay home all the time....you may not be happy with it!